March 2006

How many people know where they come from. I don’t mean what country did our ancestors come from, though that’s good to know to, but I mean who you came from. The stories that created the characters. The aunts, the uncles, grand and great grand parnets. The good and the bad. The deaths, the miscarriages, even the murders. The abusers, along with the saints of the family.

I have been working on my lineage, and to do so I have had to seek out the “elders” of my family. Surprisingly, when they saw I was coming with an open heart/mind, they found tremendous freedom in sharing the things they have been spending 50 yrs. trying to forget.

“When an Elder of the family dies, a library is burned” ~African Proverb.

I have found out that my family history comes from abuse, rape, & murder…that’s okay… because it also involves the blood of Christ… I encourage one and all, seek out the stories to enrich your own lives as well as provide freedom to those with not much time left ~Peace

One thing that is a contiunal struggle for me is the constant changine between Matrixies that my life requires. I know that I am by no means the only one who struggles with this, but just noting how draining it is. From being in the classroom, to talking with my wife on the cell phone, to planning communion while I’m on the way to an account to pick up some paper work. And it is only 12 noon.

My wife and I have had numorus conversations about all the different hats and the validity of them all. What is intresting is that I am only a couple of weeks back at it. I broke my ankle over the holidays snowboarding in Park City, Utah. At first this appeared to be catastrophic to our family and the matrixies that surround it. But it turned out to be an amazing time! Being forced to rearrange my schedules (plural), so that I could heal after the surgery that I had to have, God used as a time for rest, contemplation and relationships. Noah, our 3 year old son became my best friend due to all the extra daddy-time, I drove my wife crazy… but in a good way…I think. We to had additional time together. The church kept going, the business stayed afloat, and though I did have to drop one class, school went fine.

So Morgan what did you learn? What changed? How did nothing crash? What can you give others?….The Spirit. To rest, relax, observe, appreciate, contemplate, and embrace…MORE.

Right now I have 40 pages of papers due next week, business calls to make,… but what I am going to do is go get ready for a private little ash wednesday service that our family is going to have in our living room, just for us ;)

Until further peeling and self-discovery ~ Morgan